Chapter 88: Chapter 88
Xavier laughed "I think you’re gonna have to put up with Ethan being like this for a while Lily." he smiled warmly at me "I think he lost his mind while you were....uh....unconscious"
"That’s one way to put it" Jacob chuckled
I grimaced, looking at all the guys, they all looked like they’ve been through hell and back. I hated seeing them like this "No offense" I said "But you guys look like crap"
They all chuckled "Well it’s understandable when we almost lost you" Ethan’s voice broke at the end of the sentence "Don’t ever scare me like that again"
I felt bad at the amount of pain in his voice, even though I knew it wasn’t my fault I felt bad that he went through so much. "I won’t" I promised "The rogues?"
"We killed most of them and the others just gave up, I don’t think they’ll be bothering us any time soon"
"Good" I said and then looked at all of them "I missed you guys" I shifted on the bed and winced when my stomach and back hurt. "Shouldn’t I be healing fast by now? The Lycotine should wear off"
Ethan gulped and glanced at the other but before I could ask what was wrong the door opened "Well I see someone is awake" Miranda said smiling and walking towards me "How are you feeling?"
"Like I need to run in my wolf form for a bit" I said, I really did miss running wolf it had been too long and I haven’t heard a thing from my wolf. "When can I get out of this bed?"
Miranda looked at the others for a bit before clearing her throat. "Well Lily" She checked the papers in her hand "You’ll be glad to know the drug from the bullet has completely left your system and theLycotine too"
I frowned "Then I should be starting to heal right?" I said "it’s about damn time too"
"That’s where we have a problem Lily" Miranda said and she glanced at the others, I looked at them as well and all of them were avoiding looking at me, except Ethan who seemed pained. "We’ve had a problem"
"What kind of problem?"
"The Lycotine they gave you reacted with the drug from the bullet. And since they gave you too much and..."
"And what?" I asked not really sure I wanted to know the answer
"I don’t think you can change wolf anymore. Your heartbeat has slowed. Your still healing fast but not as fas as normal wolves and...can you hear me now through the pack link?"
"No" I said and turned "So I’m...human now?" I felt my heart drop, I wanted to cry. I wasn’t wolf anymore, I wasn’t anything I wanted to scream
"I think so"
I stayed silent for a while, considering just going back to sleep and hoping all this is just a dream. But when I looked up I saw all of the guys staring at me, waiting for my reaction, looking pained. I would be selfish if I broke down now, they’d feel bad, worst than they did when I was unconscious, especially Ethan.
"Well..." I said and cleared my throat so my voice wouldn’t break "That sucks" all of them looked at me shocked "But don’t you guys get any ideas I can still kick your asses"
The guys chuckled "only you Lily"
I smiled and they all opened a subject and I immediately felt at home again. But in my head I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. I didn’t know what this meant, I wan’t part of a pack anymore. After a while all the guys left and I guessed Ethan wanted to talk to me alone
"Are you really okay?" he asked as soon they left "you know you can tell me anything"
"I’m fine Ethan" I said smiling, thinking of what this meant for me and Ethan, what this meant for the mate bond. I noticed I didn’t feel the tingles as strong as when I was still wolf, so what happened to our mate bond?
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Ethan’s P.O.V.
"I don’t get it" I said pacing the floor in the living room with Xavier, Keith and Adrian. The others were in lux’s room "She’s not reacting the way I thought she would, She’s completely fine"
"Well what do you want her to do? Cry?"
"God no but....I just know if affects her more than she lets on. She’s been perfectly fine these few days and though I’m thankful for that it still seems like she’s....on some kind of auto pilot." I threw myself on the couch "Plus she’s been avoiding any time alone with me. Every time we’re left alone in the room she comes up with some excuse to call one of you guys. I just miss her, it’s like she’s not there anymore, like she’s going to leave me"
"I don’t know" Xavier said "She usually tells us everything too but this time, it’s like she’s hiding something."
"I think you should talk to her" Jacob said "Without interruptions. She’s gotta say something sooner or later"
"you’re right" I said "You’re absolutely Right"
I walked up the stairs and knocked on the door in her room. I found the twins laughing with her and smiled at the sound of her laugh.
"hey guys can you leave us alone?" I asked and she immediately reached and placed her hand on one of the twins.
"Come on Ethan you know anything you can say, you can say in front of my boys as well" she said and I suppressed a growl, she was definitely avoiding me
"leave" I said using my alpha tone "now"
The twins looked at Lily apologetically before they left. "Wait" she said "Why did your alpha tone work on them"
"We joined packs" I said shrugging and her eyes widened