Chapter 89: Chapter 89
"WHAT?! Why didn’t anyone tell me? You challenged Xavier? He lost? We’re one pack now?"
"Yeah we needed the mind link so we could contact each other during the fight so he challenged me and I accepted" I said "I offered him back the pack when we were done but he said he didn’t want it back, that I won the title fairly and that he actually preferred not being alpha, but I did make him my beta"
"I’m gonna kill’em" she said "He didn’t have to do that for me"
"You really underestimate how much these guys love you lux" I said "they....We’d do anything for you" I cleared my throat "But that’s not what I came to talk to you about"
I saw the nerves were back and she looked away. Damn it I wanted to shake her, to tell her to stop avoiding me, to tell me what’s wrong.
"you’ve been avoiding me"
"No I haven’--"
"Don’t deny it Lily I know you" I said "You’ve been acting weird. You lost your wolf and you act as if nothing happened, you refuse to be alone with me, and your not telling the guys you trust the most what’s bothering you"
"Nothing is bothering me I’m fine--" She shut up when she saw the look I was giving her, her lip trembled and anger flashed in her eyes "What do you want me to say Ethan? huh? You want me to break down?"
"No of course I don’t want that but I also don’t want you act like nothing is bothering you when clearly something is"
"Why? So you guys could feel bad? Haven’t I put you through enough already?" she said and I sighed. Damn I should have known that would be her reason "It’s not fair for you guys"
"And its also not fair for you" I said "You can’t stay hiding like this Lily"
"I lost my wolf Ethan" she stated "how do you expect me to be? My wolf was the only thing that made me feel strong, that made me feel a bit in control. My wolf made me who I am. If I’m not a werewolf, what the hell am I?" she looked away from me, her lip trembling and her fists clenched.
I grabbed her chin and turned her face so she could look at me "You’re Lily Marison" I stated "You’re the strong, confidant, beautiful girl that can kick anyone’s ass in wolf or human form. You’re the person who keeps everyone in this pack sane . You’re my mate"
"Miranda told me Ethan" she said "She told me the mate bond is broken, and don’t tell me you haven’t felt it. You know you can leave me now and be with whoever you want without a bond to hold you down. You don’t have to be with me"
I cursed and looked at her. I sat closer to her and looked at her in the eye "You really think that? You really think I’d want anyone else?"
"I wouldn’t blame you" she said "You need a strong alpha female, a wolf"
"You’re stronger than any she-wolf I know"I almost yelled"did you really forget what a mate means?"
"A mate is a soul mate someone that was made for you. Being a wolf just makes it easier to know who the person is, it leaves no room for doubt. A mate is someone you love unconditionally, the kind of love few people ever experience. That’s a mate Lily. Wolf or not, mate bond or not. You are my soul mate. The only person for me. Now you can decide to leave me, I wouldn’t blame you after the shit I’ve put you through. But I’d never willingly leave you. I love you, Lily! When are you going to get that idea through that thick skull of yours"
Her eyes watered "but you-"
"But nothing" I said "Nothing in the world could ever make me change my mind about this Lily." I raised her hand and put it over my chest, so she could feel my heartbeat "Feel that?" I looked at her "you’re the only girl that can ever make my heart beat this fast" I smirked "The only girl that can kick my ass and put me in place"
She threw her arms around me "I love you" she whispered "I love you so much Ethan"
"God you don’t know how much I love you" I said tightening my arms around her. I pulled away and looked at her smiling "You feel like you could stand up? Get some fresh air"
"Hell yeah I’m tired of being cooped up in this room" she said "What do you have in mind?"
"Well while you were being stubborn and avoiding me I got an interesting call"
She raised an eyebrow "And...."
"It was Dean"
"Crap! I totally forgot about him and about the contest. He must be so mad at me, I’m definitely fired."
I Laughed "Don’t worry, you’re definitely not fired." I smiled "Especially after our car won"
Her eyes widened "no way!" She said and her lips curved to the first genuine smile I’ve seen since she’s woken up
"I’m gonna call Ren to help you get dressed and we’ll go okay?" I said getting up "See you later"
"hey Ethan" she called just as I was about to leave and I turned to her "You don’t think we can stop at the mall while we’re out. Christmas is three days away and I want to buy everyone their presents"
I smiled "Of course we can, love" she blushed and I smiled "Oh and wear warm clothes. The whole town is covered with snow" Her face brightened and I winked at her before leaving.
God I loved that girl.
Ethan’s P.O.V.