Chapter 87: Chapter 87
The tears I’d been holding for so long made their way out and my mom choked on a sob as she hugged me. I panted, choked and cried; my body heaving uncontrollably as I clutched to the pain in my chest. "I-I can’t live without her and it’s....it’s so fucking hard"
"I know, I know" My mom said and I knew she was trying hard not to cry "It’s gonna be okay"
"No it’s...n-not" I said "I did all of this to her...If it wasn’t for me she-" I trailed on crying like a child. No one would ever see this side of me except my mom or my mate.
"Now you listen to me Ethan Lytton" My mom said lifting my head so I could look at her "The rogues did this to her and she’s going to be okay do you hear me?" I stayed silent for a while before nodding "Now when she wakes up, if she can’t change anymore you’re gonna have to be the strong one, you’re gonna have to be there for her and you won’t be able to if you’re overwhelmed with guilt."
"You’re right" I said straightening and wiping away my tears "You’re absolutely right"
"You made some mistakes, we all do but dwelling in the past won’t help" she said sternly and then smiled "Now I have to go you’re father’s waiting for me downstairs and Rose is with the babysitter"
"Give her a kiss for me will ya?" I said smiling, it’s been so long since I’ve seen my baby sister. My mom nodded "I love you mom"
"I love you too honey" She said hugging me and then she left.
I stood up and walked towards Lily’s bed and slid in with her, careful not to hurt her. I gently pulled her to me gave her small kisses all over her face till I finally reached her lips.
"I love you" I whispered to her "I love you so fucking much, baby" my eyes filled with tears and my fingers brushed her hair gently as I cupped her cheek with my other hand "And you’re gonna be okay. We’re gonna get through this I promise" I placed another gentle kiss to her lips and felt a few tears slip, some of them falling on her cheek before I wiped them with my thumb "Wolf or not we’re gonna get through this" I let my hand, that was brushing her hair, down and held her hand "Just wake up baby, wake up"
Ethan’s P.OV.
I smirked as I looked out the window and then glanced back at Lily. "It’s snowing you know" I said "And not just small snowflakes this time, it’s going to be a good blizzard"
I walked towards her bed and let my fingers linger on the side of her cheek. I glanced at the heart monitor and sighed, her heart beat has slowed down and become like humans, not as fast as wolves. I sighed and took the seat next to her, holding her hand.
I heard a knock on the door and Keith came in, followed by Xavier, Adrian, Jacob and the twins.
"Shouldn’t ou guys be asleep?" I asked and they all looked at me weirdly
"You really think we’d be able to sleep anywhere but here? We almost lost her today" Jim said "We’re gonna sleep here tonight"
I nodded and turned back to looking a my beautiful mate.
"You didn’t have dinner" Xavier stated "how long has it been since you’ve eaten?"
"Don’t care"
"You really think she’d want you to do that?"
"Yeah well she can kick my ass for it when she wakes up"
Xavier sighed and shook his head just as the door opened and Ren came in. It was the first time I noticed her scent had changed, Xavier’s scent was mixed with hers and I knew she must have had her heat. But I couldn’t help the slight feeling of jealousy in me
Lily’s P.O.V.
Pain. That was all I could think about. I didn’t know whether to wish it would stop or to be grateful. Pain meant I was alive, that I wasn’t dead yet. But for a short while I didn’t feel any pain but then the pain just stopped. I didn’t understand what was happening, all I knew was that I was suddenly aware of someone holding my hand.
My eyes were heavy but I opened them anyways. I adjusted to the blurriness and ignored the dryness in my throat, When I finally managed to see right I glanced around the room and frowned.
It was still dark but there was a bit of light out. Ethan’s hand was holding mine, Xavier was sitting on the window sill, Dave and Jim were sleeping on opposite sides of the couch, Adrian was sitting on the floor next to Keith and Jacob was sitting on a chair against the wall.
"Well aren’t you the depressing bunch" I said and winced at how hoarse my voice came out. I was also thirsty, my mouth was completely dry. All their heads snapped up and I smiled weakly "Hi"
"Lily" Ethan said breathing a sigh of relief and stood up. His hands framed my face and he stared into my eyes "God I missed you" he pressed his lips against my forehead and inhaled my scent "You’re okay" he said but I had a feeling it was more to himself than to me "God,you’re okay"
"Of course I am" I said "Someone has to make sure you boys behave" I chuckled and smiled when I saw Dave holding a glass of water to me "Thanks" I tried to sit up but groaned as my stomach hurt. Ethan immediately helped me sit up and took the glass from Dave, helping me drink. "You know I can drink by myself right?"