Chen Yan
Chapter 166 In the End, I Still Lost
Finally, he gently lifted her chin, and looking into her eyes, he asked again, "Why is it that you can compromise with Xiao Fengyun, but you treat me this way?"
"A-Wu, you can understand Xiao Fengyun, why can't you understand me?"
"Your Highness, can you not bring up Senior Brother Xiao in everything? This matter is a conflict between you and me and has nothing to do with him," Yu Qingwu interrupted him.
She couldn't understand why he could bring up Senior Brother Xiao in everything.
She and Senior Brother Xiao were already in the past. From the moment she broke off with Senior Brother Xiao, there was no longer any possibility between them.
Closing her eyes, Yu Qingwu emphasized again, "Your Highness, there is no longer any possibility between me and Senior Brother Xiao, and besides, those past events are far from comparable to these conflicts between you and me."
Yu Qingwu tried her best to calm herself down, trying hard to separate Xiao Fengyun from the issue.
However, the more she did so, the more she angered Xie Jin Yan.
At this moment, Xie Jin Yan's mind involuntarily recalled those words Qin Yiliu had once said.
Faced with her explanation, his expression did not ease, but instead became even more unsightly. He suddenly pinched her chin and asked with a sneer, "So, Yu Qingwu, what you mean is that any disagreement, in Xiao Fengyun's case, is a minor matter, but in my case, it's a mistake? It's beyond redemption, is that it?"
"I didn't mean that..."
"Then what do you mean?" Xie Jin Yan interrupted her again, a hint of anger and exhaustion in his eyes.
Yes, after suspecting for so long, arguing for so long, one would inevitably become exhausted.
What's more, Xie Jin Yan had from the beginning believed that she still had feelings for Senior Brother Xiao, which was why he would bring up Senior Brother Xiao every time there was a conflict, but never faced the differences that existed between them.
Suddenly, Yu Qingwu didn't want to explain anymore.
She felt that perhaps the more she explained, the more Xie Jin Yan would feel that she was intentionally protecting Senior Brother Xiao.
After thinking about it, she simply stopped talking and only replied to him faintly, "If Your Highness insists on attributing every conflict between us to Senior Brother Xiao, then I have nothing to say."
Xie Jin Yan originally thought that Yu Qingwu would at least explain a few words, at least give an explanation for her coldness these days, but who would have thought that she would have such a "what's the point" attitude.
The anger in his heart suddenly rose even more, and jealousy surged even higher. He opened his mouth and wanted to threaten her to make her yield.
But the words reached his lips, he thought of Yu Qi, or rather, Yu Jinnian, her brother.
The reason why she dared to be like this now was also because she had such a brother who held power.
So, in other words, if it weren't because she couldn't compete with him, perhaps she wouldn't have chosen him in the first place. If it weren't because he was her only shortcut to revenge, she wouldn't have loved him.
But now, he really wasn't anymore.
Therefore, even if Xiao Fengyun was mentioned, she was too lazy to explain to him.
Xie Jin Yan slowly withdrew his hand, a layer of frost appearing in his dark eyes. He sneered, "I understand, now that you're relying on that Yu Qi, I'm no longer your only choice for revenge, so you don't even bother to explain, is that it?"
She didn't explain?
She explained, but did he listen?
Yu Qingwu realized for the first time that Xie Jin Yan was not only biased and crazy, but he was also unreasonable.
For a moment, she was also a little annoyed. She raised her voice and interrupted him, "Xie Jin Yan, can you be reasonable? Didn't I explain? Did you listen to my explanation? No matter what I explain, you always have to think in that impossible direction, what else can I say?"
"Yes, you and I really have nothing to say! You and Xiao Fengyun have endless things to say!"
"Even with Xie Ruizhi, you have more to say than with me! Yu Qingwu, what am I in your eyes?" Xie Jin Yan's eyes were bloodshot, and he became more and more agitated as he spoke. At the end, his voice gradually lowered.
He lowered his head slightly, a trace of bitterness appearing on his stunningly handsome face. He murmured, "In the end, I'm still not as good as that Xiao Fengyun, not worthy of half of your consideration, Senior Sister..."
"In the end, I still lost..." Xie Jin Yan's voice was hoarse, with a heavy nasal sound.
Although he didn't shed tears, his eyes were red, making his already flushed eyes even more pitiful...
Although Yu Qingwu felt that the words 'pitiful' were not suitable for use on a man.
But it didn't seem strange at all to use them on Xie Jin Yan.
Especially his current appearance, reminded Yu Qingwu of when he was young, when he was chased and scolded as a Southern Yue barbarian and his eyes turned red.
For a moment, the anger and indifference in Yu Qingwu's heart were dispelled a lot.
Even, she began to wonder if she had gone too far.
"Jin Yan..." After a moment of stalemate, Yu Qingwu finally gave in.
Just like when she was young, she gave in to the helpless Xie Jin Yan.
She stretched out her hand, gently pulled his sleeve, and called him again, "Jin Yan, I didn't mean that..."
Her voice was gentle, and her small hand gently tugged at him.
But this time, Xie Jin Yan did not remove the frostiness and respond to her gently as before.
Instead, he heavily withdrew his hand and turned his back to her.
That slender back looked lonely and desolate, just like when he was young when he was excluded by his fellow disciples and sat alone by the river.
Yu Qingwu's chest couldn't help but ache. She slowly stepped forward and hugged him from behind.
Her soft little hands tightly wrapped around his waist, Xie Jin Yan's fingers trembled slightly. He subconsciously wanted to hold her hand, but he stretched out halfway and then retracted it, saying with a bit of sorrow, "Yu Qingwu, let go."
Hearing this, the woman did not let go, but instead hugged him even tighter.
Xie Jin Yan remained unmoved, only closing his eyes, resisting the urge to hug her, and said again in a deep voice, "Let go! Since you feel so incompatible with me, I'll divorce you, anyway, you have your brother now, and you don't need me anymore."
The way he said this was just pitiful.
Even though she suspected that he was acting, Yu Qingwu's layers of psychological defenses were still broken down by him.
She paused, then slowly released her hand, went around to the front, slowly approached the man's arms, and said softly, "Jin Yan, let me say it again, I'm not just using you, nor am I being indifferent because you can't avenge me. I just feel that perhaps being more disciplined and not being so casual would be better for you and me."
Eh, being cold and indifferent to him, that's called being better for both of them?
Xie Jin Yan's hand slightly fell on her back, finally relenting, and asked her in a hoarse voice, "Being more disciplined, so your being more disciplined is to alienate me, to be cold to me? Do I look like I'm doing very well now?"