Chapter 139: Chapter 132: She Still Wants His Love 1
What to believe, what not to believe, what to insist on, what not to insist on...
I’ve long lost my principle.
Yin Shixiu’s kindness towards her, she felt distinctly, every time it touched her deeply.
Of course, many people treated her well, her mom and dad, grandparents, Yin Meng, and even Ren Yixuan from before...
But uncle was different.
Back then, when she thought she would end up with Ren Yixuan, but in the end they didn’t, she felt sad, wronged, helpless...
But it was just sadness, feeling wronged and helpless.
Unlike before, when the contract with its black and white terms lay there, constantly reminding her that Yin Shixiu could leave at any moment... each day passed with such heaviness and anxiety, without a shred of security. Just the thought of him leaving her brought a heartache that made her feel as though her entire world would collapse.
Nor like now, where the contract was clearly torn apart, and even though he wasn’t going to leave for the time being, her sense of security was still absent, simply because the reasons for his staying weren’t what she had hoped for...
Yin Shixiu once asked her, "A human’s heart is never satisfied like a snake swallowing an elephant, have you ever been greedy?"
At that time, she didn’t realize that she had already become more and more greedy for Yin Shixiu’s attention.
Greedy for his care, his protection, his companionship...
These, he seemed willing to give, but she was still not satisfied, she also wanted... his love.
"Su Xiaomeng, is this question so hard to answer?!"
Heaven knows how much fury, how much anger, and how much... frustration and helplessness was in Yin Shixiu’s heart now.
"Is the right to divorce in my hands?"
Su Xiaomeng raised her eyes and glared at him, "Do I have any say in this?"
"Can I leave just because I want to?"
The three consecutive questions left Yin Shixiu seeing no trace of the hope he desperately wished to see on her face.
Yin Shixiu clenched his fists, the veins on his forehead bulged, almost grinding his teeth, he squeezed out the words through his teeth, "Right, you don’t have that choice."
"...Then why are you asking at all!"
Su Xiaomeng immediately shouted at him! Her emotions were a bit out of control...
"But if you had that choice, would you still want to leave?"
"Yes! I don’t want to be with you!"
Su Xiaomeng’s tears fell with a "splat".
Being with him is just too hard... even though most of the time, she feels happy, but at times like these, when she is not happy... just one encounter nearly drains the life out of her!
Why is it that whenever he opposes her, it feels as painful as dying!
It’s terrible, this feeling of being led around by the nose by him is just terrible.
After hearing what Su Xiaomeng said, Yin Shixiu really felt like strangling her!
For a moment, the two just stared at each other, eyes filled with red lines...
Yin Shixiu looked at the tears she shed and only saw it as her determination to separate from him...
If she was so determined, why bother forcing her to stay?
Fine... then let’s just separate...
That’s what he should say... but!
From the moment he painstakingly wed her, he had said it was a gamble. All he was betting on was that she would eventually fall for him...
If he lost, they would merely become another bickering couple among many.
A bickering couple... even if they become one, he didn’t plan to let go!
Yin Shixiu’s eyes darkened, suddenly letting out a slight snort, he stepped forward and grabbed Su Xiaomeng’s wrist!
He pulled her up from the sofa, drawing her in front of him, forcing her to meet his gaze!
"Su Xiaomeng, your conscience is truly eaten by the dogs! But even so, as long as I haven’t said divorce, you better not ever think about it again!"
Yin Shixiu’s tone was as cold as ice, making one’s hair stand on end!
Su Xiaomeng’s tears suddenly streamed down, she opened her mouth to bite the hand holding her wrist!
Yin Shixiu winced in pain, yet the next moment he hoisted her whole person up!
"What are you doing! What are you doing!"
Su Xiaomeng pounded his back!
Yin Shixiu kept a cold face, "What do you think I’m doing?"
"How would I know what you are doing! Put me down!"
"Didn’t you tell your parents that I always want to sleep with you?"
Pitying her, he had endured, only to still be accused of such...
Su Xiaomeng realized what he intended to do, her mind went blank!
Then she struggled even harder!
"Don’t even think about it! I don’t agree! I don’t agree!"
"Once you feel good, you won’t be saying you don’t agree..."
Yin Shixiu walked into the bedroom, kicked back with his foot, closing the door.
Su Xiaomeng was thrown on the bed!
She hurriedly bounced up!
Yin Shixiu had already grabbed both her wrists and placed them above her head, and together, he drew out his belt with one hand, tying her hands together, fastening them to the headboard!
With both legs kneeling at her waist, he locked in her legs!
He was taking off his jacket with one hand, while pulling at Su Xiaomeng’s clothes!
"Yin Shixiu!"
"Yes, just call me like that!"
Su Xiaomeng was terrified, her little face streaked with tears was as pale as paper!
She saw the fierceness in his eyes, and just as he lowered his head to approach her...
She quickly shook her head and turned away, "Stop, stop! I don’t want this!"
Yin Shixiu paid no heed to her, Su Xiaomeng’s whole body was tense, tears streamed down like a waterfall!
Tied by him, she was nothing more than a clown, left to his whims...
Just this one feeling was enough to make her overwhelmed with sadness.
"Waa waa waa—ah ah ah—"
Su Xiaomeng started wailing!
Like a child who had been bullied, crying loudly...
Despite Yin Shixiu’s raging anger and his heart’s iron-clad resolve, facing such cries...he lost the will to continue.
Yin Shixiu looked at her, his face full of helplessness. If he could, he really wanted to shed a couple of tears too.
What kind of mess is this?
"Xiao Meng..."
This gentle call carried how much bitterness from his heart?
"Waa waa waa..."
Su Xiaomeng cried with tears and snot all over her face.
Yin Shixiu looked at her, "Why? Why do you insist on divorcing me?... Do you dislike me that much?"
Su Xiaomeng’s eyes were swollen, tears still welling up, and she stared at him fiercely, "Do you think I’m a fool! You married me with bad intentions! Not divorcing me is also bad intentions! You had your eyes on me from the start, what’s your real purpose!"
Yin Shixiu squinted his eyes... bad intentions?
"Isn’t it because—"
Su Xiaomeng was just about to accuse him, but Yin Shixiu suddenly got angrier than her!
"I do have bad intentions!"
Okay, he finally admitted it!
Su Xiaomeng continued staring fiercely at him with her wide eyes!
"I do have bad intentions, every time I see you, I want to sleep with you! Seeing you and that Ren Yixuan being good, I want to break you two apart for the rest of your lives!"
"I want to steal you away, that’s what I intended from the start! Everything I did was to achieve this goal!"
Su Xiaomeng’s crying suddenly stopped, she looked at Yin Shixiu...
Occasionally, she shuddered from sobbing.
Why... what he said was not quite what she expected...
"Not just two kids, I want you to give birth to an entire soccer team for me!"
"An, an entire soccer team?"
Su Xiaomeng blinked her reddened eyes, amazed, "How, how many people?"
"Eleven main players on the field, twelve substitutes!"
Yin Shixiu felt that after being with Su Xiaomeng for so long, he really got a bit dumb... at this moment, he was even explaining soccer knowledge to her!
Eleven, twelve...
Su Xiaomeng calculated, stammering, "Tw-twenty-three?!"
"What? Can’t do it?"
"Y-you get away! Get away!"
Su Xiaomeng immediately wanted to kick him!
Yin Shixiu restrained her thigh and said word by word, "I wouldn’t mind twenty-three, but having just one was already a lot of suffering for you, so it’s just a thought. You’ve given me a son and a daughter, and I am already very content."
Su Xiaomeng was stunned.
"Girl, let’s live well together... can’t we?"
Yin Shixiu looked at her, his expression seemingly begging.
Su Xiaomeng only felt her heart had already melted...
Why, is it different?
She sniffed, muttering and asking, "Didn’t you refuse to divorce for the sake of becoming the Head of the Yin Family, to inherit the family’s wealth..."
Yin Shixiu’s expression stiffened, vaguely feeling that something went wrong somewhere.
"Who told you that?"
Su Xiaomeng pursed her lips, "Not, wasn’t it you who said... the family rules stipulate... I, I asked Yin Meng..."
Seeing Yin Shixiu’s stiff, somewhat ugly expression, she sniffed, speaking slowly, "I know everything now... I know there are many rules in your family I can’t understand, and I know you’re not an ordinary person, won’t always stay in Chengdu for me—"
"Stop."
Yin Shixiu told her to shut up, his brain almost running at a hundred and eighty per second.
And then slowly, slowly... he figured it out.
He looked at her, asking, "That day you took out the contract... was it for the divorce?"
Su Xiaomeng bit her lip, staring at him...
Yin Shixiu squinted his eyes, asked again, "Was it not for the divorce... right?"
Su Xiaomeng’s nose turned sour, her mouth puckered, suddenly feeling wronged... looking at him pitifully, she nodded, "... Yes."
Yin Shixiu felt his heart like it was punched hard.
He really wanted to spit blood...
It was he... who misunderstood.
"Then why didn’t you just say it straight!"
"You said you were plotting against me from the start! Signing the contract was to fool me into your hands! Your tone and expressions were entirely like a villain, what else could I say!"
Su Xiaomeng shouted at him!
Yin Shixiu’s head was about to explode!
In fact, these were true words, just... somewhat overbearing.
Maybe in some people’s eyes, this kind of overbearing is not a bad thing...
But if misunderstood, this kind of overbearing... turns into something terrifying.
Yin Shixiu found the root cause of the rift between them that lasted so long...
But he didn’t feel happy, instead, he still looked at Su Xiaomeng...
"Yin Meng told you about the Yin Family’s rules, direct descendants can’t inherit the position of Family Head or family wealth after a divorce, but did she tell you, that the day you came down from Jiuling Mountain, when your parents took you away, I had already voluntarily relinquished the position of Family Head and the inheritance of family wealth in front of your in-laws?"