"It's just that even though his business is already the largest, even more prosperous than when his father was alive, some people still feel he doesn't compare to the woman's father, and even believe his success is due to the protagonist's family."
"What's more, some people are sowing discord, saying the female protagonist deliberately harmed the male protagonist in order to take over his business after giving birth. Outsiders don't want these two families to join forces, don't want them to be united. The most crucial thing is that the male protagonist believed it," Yu Jingchen continued.
"Why? The female protagonist clearly loves him, why would he believe it?" Nan Zhiyun asked Yu Jingchen, her tone laced with unhappiness and accusation.
"Because that male protagonist is foolish. Thinking about it now, only those who are useless and incompetent would have such concerns," Yu Jingchen continued.
"Then what happens to the female protagonist later?" Nan Zhiyun, for some reason, was very interested in the girl's subsequent fate.
"That female protagonist... it's very bad. Because of the male protagonist's misplaced anger, she has a very difficult time. No one respects her, and the male protagonist often blames her, even beats and scolds her. A slight mistake would result in punishment," Yu Jingchen continued to sleep.
Nan Zhiyun fell silent.
"Yun'er thought of herself, didn't you?" Yu Jingchen pointed it out very directly.
Nan Zhiyun didn't speak. Yu Jingchen hugged the girl tightly: "Nan Zhiyun, her experience is truly similar to yours, but she never felt the male protagonist's care until the very end. When she was pregnant, the male protagonist punished her with a staff beating, and the child was lost, yet he showed no emotion." At this point, Yu Jingchen clearly felt Nan Zhiyun tremble.
Yu Jingchen gently kissed Nan Zhiyun's forehead, his entire heart aching.
"Does Yun'er want to know what happened next?" Yu Jingchen asked her.
Nan Zhiyun nestled in Yu Jingchen's arms, only her head showing. Yu Jingchen's arm rested on her chest, like a little quail.
"If you don't want to hear it, I won't say any more," Yu Jingchen told her.
"Your subject wishes to know," Nan Zhiyun said softly.
Yu Jingchen pulled her closer into his embrace, then continued, "Later, the male protagonist encountered a disaster and was ambushed. The female protagonist lost her life for him, dying in his arms."
"Why?" Nan Zhiyun couldn't understand. Perhaps it was empathy; her tears fell without warning.
"I don't know. Perhaps foolishness," Yu Jingchen reached out to wipe Nan Zhiyun's tears.
"It wasn't worth it," Nan Zhiyun's voice was filled with tears.
"Yes, it wasn't worth it. So Yun'er must be well. No matter when, you yourself are the most important," Yu Jingchen gently wiped Nan Zhiyun's tears, but the more he wiped, the more tears flowed.
Yu Jingchen didn't understand why Nan Zhiyun in the previous life had blocked that sword at first, but later he gradually formed a guess.
"Why did she do that? She could have been fine," Nan Zhiyun couldn't understand, nor could she grasp the reason for her own distress.
"If Yun'er were her, what would she do?" Yu Jingchen asked.
"A child is a mother's bottom line," Nan Zhiyun replied. Yu Jingchen remained silent.
"Would Yun'er forgive someone like that?" Yu Jingchen asked her.
"No, your subject would never want to see him again. Your subject would hate him and resent him," Nan Zhiyun hadn't even thought twice, and Yu Jingchen's heart ached.
"Don't cry..." Yu Jingchen felt a pang in his heart watching Nan Zhiyun's endless tears.
But Nan Zhiyun couldn't stop. Perhaps she thought of herself; all the past grievances surged forth, and no one could withstand it.
"Good girl, stop crying. Your eyes will be swollen tomorrow," Yu Jingchen, seeing Nan Zhiyun crying so intensely, felt as if needles were pricking his heart. He regretted bringing up this topic.
"Your Majesty, your subject is in pain..." Nan Zhiyun hid her face in Yu Jingchen's chest, her hands still clutching his arm.
"I know, be good, stop crying, it's okay, alright? It's okay," Yu Jingchen held her and soothed her, patting her back.
But Nan Zhiyun couldn't calm down, and her crying only intensified. Yu Jingchen knew that it was more because of Nan Zhiyun herself. She was likely thinking about her own experiences over the years, her own grievances.
Yu Jingchen also felt guilty, but there was nothing he could do except comfort her. He could only stay by her side quietly. Nan Zhiyun had indeed connected it to herself, and all the pent-up emotions from the past were becoming uncontrollable.
Yu Jingchen, using the quilt, pulled her closer into his embrace, like holding a small child. Nan Zhiyun's face was now buried in the position of Yu Jingchen's shoulder.
"Be good, don't cry anymore, okay? It's okay, everything will get better," Yu Jingchen's voice was somewhat weak. These words were ultimately pale; those things had already existed and happened.
Nan Zhiyun didn't know, but he was clear. He chose to tell it this way today, simply because he felt Nan Zhiyun should have known. It was just that he was sorry, he didn't have the courage to tell her directly that this was what truly happened in the previous life.
Perhaps it was selfish, but heaven always had its arrangements. Heaven arranged for him to come back once more to save, to compensate, and to recognize his feelings and understand his needs.
But heaven did not give Nan Zhiyun the memories of that life, perhaps to make this life happier, more joyful. The mistakes of the previous life had already happened, and even if he were to repeat it, for Nan Zhiyun, it would only be painful memories, and she might even be trapped in pain for a lifetime.
She had persevered for so long in her previous life, sacrificed so much, for what? Then he would give her everything she wanted in this life. This was what she deserved. But if she had those memories in this life, she would gain nothing but pain. Because she would resist, so what she had finally obtained through her efforts in this life, she would discard herself.
In that case, if she truly recovered those memories, it would only be two lifetimes of suffering, and she would gain nothing, only loss. Therefore, Yu Jingchen would rather Nan Zhiyun not have those memories. It was selfish, but not entirely selfish.
While there was still time, he only wished that Nan Zhiyun could be happy in this life. He would shelter Nan Zhiyun under his wing and never let anyone hurt her again!
So...
Nan Zhiyun, please forgive this thought of mine, okay? The memories of the previous life are enough as long as I have them...
—Voiceover: Don't think it's unfair. It is precisely because only he has them that in this life, only he will continue to suffer. Because after he cares, after he falls in love, even when he is old, he will remember. The deeper the feelings, the greater the torment for him later. He will never forget, always brooding, always feeling guilty, always carrying this debt, this sin. The most painful punishment is not forgetting, but remembering, remembering deeply after loving, but this remembrance is only to constantly remind himself of his past recklessness and sins.
—————————————————————— Can someone help me think of a posthumous title with special meaning and that sounds good?