When his sister was unwell, he couldn't be in good spirits either. After all, she was his own sister, a blood relative. There were very few things in this world that could surpass familial love.
Even with a good family, when he thought of his sister, his heart ached. It was for this very reason that he hated the Chu family father and son so much, unwilling to let those ungrateful wretches go.
During the meal, Jin Qing was quite silent, occasionally asking about Jiang Yan and her unborn child, and about Jian Yi's daily life. Fu Chen only returned in the evenings and did not eat lunch at home.
After the meal, Jin Qing returned to the bedroom Jiang Yan had arranged for her. Not long after, Jin Lan walked in. He looked at his sister's somber expression and didn't know how else to comfort the woman who had suffered so much.
"Sister, do you still want to see Chu Weixian and Chu Yu? They are both imprisoned now, and their verdicts haven't been handed down yet. If you want to see them, I can arrange it," Jin Lan said, looking at his sister with concern.
Jin Qing shook her head. "No, there's nothing to see. Lan Lan, I'm sorry. I killed our parents and left you without parents at such a young age."
Jin Qing still blamed herself. She couldn't help but blame herself. All the misfortunes of the Jin family were due to her poor judgment of people. In her youthful arrogance, she thought she could control everything, but now she realized how naive and ridiculous she had been.
What she couldn't accept the most was that her parents' tragic deaths were because of her.
"Sister, please don't think that way. It's all in the past. You're my sister. As long as you don't abandon me, I won't blame you. You can't be blamed for anything else. If anyone is to blame, it's Chu Weixian for being so wicked. If you dare to abandon me, I'll hate you for the rest of my life, and I won't be able to live well either," Jin Lan said, worried about his sister's state. She seemed to have no desires, which worried him.
"I won't do anything foolish. I still have to atone for my mistakes, so how could I do anything foolish? So don't worry unnecessarily," Jin Qing said with a smile, noticing her brother's concern.
"It's not your fault, sister. There are many bad people in this world. We just need to be good ourselves. We shouldn't punish ourselves for the actions of bad people."
"Jin Lan, when I wanted to marry Chu Weixian, my parents strongly objected. I remember you also opposed it, but I didn't listen. How could I stubbornly believe that my own judgment was superior to my parents'?"
"Sister, if that were the case, Mom, Dad, and I would only blame ourselves for not insisting on opposing your marriage to that man, and we would never blame you. So please don't blame yourself," Jin Lan tried his best to comfort her.
Jin Qing smiled and said, "I know, you are the ones who love me most in this world. Jin Lan, I want to become a nun."
Jin Qing had made up her mind. She wanted to become a nun. Her parents had died because of her, and her child had also been harmed and died. She felt there was nothing left for her to cling to in this mortal world. Her brother had his own family now and didn't need her. If she interfered too much, it would only lead to new conflicts between them. She was afraid of making more mistakes and hurting innocent people.
Jin Lan was startled and said excitedly, "Sister, what are you talking about? You're only in your early forties, you're still young, and you can still do many things. Why would you think about becoming a nun? I disagree. I won't allow you to leave."