Chapter 604: Chapter 604: I’m Sorry
Li Yufei heard this, and her emotions were complicated.
She lowered her head, it took her a while to calm down, and said, "Shaoheng, I don’t want to lose you. So, let’s face it together and find a way together."
Du Shaoheng suddenly interrupted her, "From what position are you saying these words to me?"
Li Yufei looked up, her gaze faltered slightly.
Du Shaoheng said, "Don’t you know that your words can disturb my heart?"
He turned his face away, clenching his fist, "Yufei, was it my sister who told you I have a terminal illness, and since you think I don’t have much time left, you’re being so gentle with me?"
Li Yufei came back to her senses and said, "I just don’t want Junjun to lose his daddy, and I’ve never denied that you’re very important to me."
Du Shaoheng murmured, "How important?"
Li Yufei: "..."
She wanted to tell him.
He was a part of her life.
But she couldn’t say it.
Just like how Du Shaoheng asked, from what position could she say these words.
There had been countless futures between them, but she had completely killed them.
For no reason, Li Yufei felt sad in her heart.
She smoothed out the waves in her heart and softly said, "I’m saying this to you from the position of a friend. You’re Junjun’s daddy, even if there’s no result between us, it can still be happiness. No matter what happened between us, no matter whether I’m by your side or some other woman, I hope you can be safe and happy, rather than..."
Rather than losing you this way.
Du Shaoheng said, "Thank you for your concern. But you’ve also probably discussed this illness with my sister. Yufei, I have a terminal disease, incurable. Since you know, I have no reason to hide anything from you."
He took a deep breath and said, "I don’t want my wife to know about this, I’m afraid she won’t be able to handle it."
Li Yufei said, "You should have told her earlier."
Du Shaoheng said, "I don’t want her to live in fear every day. This disease can worsen at any moment, and once it worsens, it becomes more severe each day. I don’t want her living in fear."
Li Yufei: "If you don’t tell her now, when it starts to worsen, what will she think? Shaoheng, listen to me, tell your wife about the illness as early as possible, don’t leave her with any regrets."
Du Shaoheng said, "And what would telling her change? To her, this news would undoubtedly be a bombshell."
Li Yufei: "Keeping it from her and not telling her is a form of cruelty. When the day comes that your condition worsens and you tell her then, she’ll absolutely feel regret, that she didn’t cherish you properly in your limited time."
Du Shaoheng: "You don’t understand."
Li Yufei: "How could I not understand, I understand, you want to protect her."
She looked at Du Shaoheng’s slightly pale face, a faint ache arose in her heart, her lips trembled slightly, her eyes reddened over and over again, she lowered her head, desperately controlling herself, unwilling to shed tears in front of him.
Du Shaoheng took in all of her sorrow and sadness.
He smiled wryly, softly said, "Yufei, don’t cry. You need to know that life is very short, not everyone is destined to live a long life, what’s important is finding the meaning of life in these short years."
Li Yufei’s nose stung, "Then what’s your... meaning of life?"
Du Shaoheng quietly looked at her.
In a trance, scenes from the past flashed vividly before his eyes, like a moving carousel.
He smiled and gently said, "Do you know? Meeting you was the greatest meaning of my life."
Li Yufei’s heart was seized.
Du Shaoheng said, "It feels like, in my short life, I was meant to meet you. Even if, in the end, I can’t have you, you’ve always held a very important place in my life from start to finish. That hasn’t changed."
Li Yufei’s heart twinged with pain.
Her voice took on a slightly somber tone, "Shaoheng, I’m sorry..."
He once said she was a part of his life.
But she never properly cherished this man who loved her so dearly.
So much so that... they missed each other like this.
Now that he’s ill, she can’t be with him, at most, she can only care from the position and standpoint of a friend.
That’s what saddens her the most.
It feels like she doesn’t even have the right to care about him.
Du Shaoheng said, "Do you remember, when we broke up, I asked you if you would regret making such a choice in the future? You told me firmly that you wouldn’t regret it."
After saying that, he curled his lips, smiled gently, "Yufei, you were born proud, that’s who you are. You’ve gotten everything you wanted, and you’re doing well now, I’m fine too, you don’t need to regret, don’t look back. We don’t need to regret anything."
Li Yufei’s eyelashes drooped slightly, she softly said, "Shaoheng, can I hug you?"
Du Shaoheng laughed bitterly for a moment, slowly stood up, opened his arms to her, "Come here."
Li Yufei got up, walked to him, not daring to look at his face, she just closed her eyes tightly, clinging to him fiercely.
The last time she hugged him, was when they broke up.
Heartlessly, she broke up with him, giving him a reason she thought was reasonable.
They embraced each other, silent for a long time.
Since then, they’ve rarely met.
It took Li Yufei a long time to overcome the pain of their breakup.
His embrace was as warm as ever.
She held onto him tightly, crying uncontrollably.
Du Shaoheng: "Yufei, don’t cry..."
Li Yufei choked up, wanting to say something, but nothing came out, she just held him tightly, unwilling to let go.
At this moment, she finally felt regret.
Regretting having missed him.
Regretting not having loved him well.
Her heart ached sharply with a kind of physical pain.
Du Shaoheng said, "You know? I’m very thankful that you didn’t choose me back then. If you were my wife, my feelings now would be different. I would be very reluctant to leave you, unable to let you go. If this disease is a predestined calamity in my life... Yufei, maybe not choosing me was the best decision. You have better options, and you still have the chance to find someone who loves you, someone healthy, someone who can take care of you, to live a complete and happy life."
Li Yufei: "Stop talking."
Du Shaoheng said, "If that day comes when I’m no longer here, forget me, and start anew, okay?"
Li Yufei shook her head, unwilling to listen to his words.
Du Shaoheng said, "Yufei, this is fate. We both need to accept it."
He released her, gently holding her face, looked into her eyes filled with tears, and tenderly wiped away her tears, softly kissed her brow, "Can you promise me something?"