chun jie di xiao long
Chapter 16 If You Want to Make a Living
The sound of firecrackers bid farewell to the old year. After midnight, fireworks and firecrackers could be heard from all directions, which was particularly lively and dense. The sporadic movements originally turned into a overwhelming posture at this time.
Zhou Ze blew on his fingernails. The noise outside had nothing to do with him. He had no home. Although he nominally had a "home" now, he didn't want to go back.
Many people have had an idea when they are alive, that is, if they can be reborn, what they want to do.
Passionate words, free rein, regarding lords of myriad households as mere dirt.
But when you really come back from hell, you will suddenly find that your previous pursuit, your thoughts, your longing, are like the teacher asking in kindergarten: What do you want to do when you grow up?
Then the children answered together: Scientists, doctors, astronauts, soldiers...
Dreams are always full.
And reality is not too skinny, but a person's fighting spirit is destined to be limited.
Sometimes, to be able to breathe, to be able to hear sounds, to be able to sit here and grind through some work, to waste time,
Perhaps this is the real peace of mind.
Xu Qinglang still slept in the store tonight, and Zhou Ze heard the sound of him closing the door.
He said he had twenty-odd apartments, but Zhou Ze knew that his parents were in the store.
A family should be neat and tidy.
This year's New Year is naturally even more important.
Outside, it began to rain, and a little bit of dampness began to seep in, making people feel a little depressed.
Zhou Ze's phone rang, it was his wife's call.
"Hello." Zhou Ze answered the phone.
"Are you asleep?" Doctor Lin asked.
Zhou Ze thought this question was very idiotic.
Who answered your phone when I was asleep?
Could it be a dead person...oh no, a ghost?
No, something seems wrong.
Zhou Ze leaned back slightly in his chair, and the scene of Doctor Lin gently poking his chest with her finger, calling him: "You dead ghost..." appeared in his mind.
For the first time, he felt that telling the truth could be so mesmerizing.
Perhaps it was too boring, or maybe it was purely leisure,
Zhou Ze found that his thoughts were a little divergent now,
Thinking a little too much.
"Not yet." Zhou Ze replied.
"Squeak..."
Doctor Lin pushed open the door of the store and walked in. She was holding a red umbrella, wearing leather pants and a white sweater, with her hair draped over her shoulders.
Zhou Ze forgot to hang up the phone for a while.
This woman,
Is indeed very beautiful.
Especially her temperament, which can always give you a feeling of "life is only as good as the first time we met," instantly piercing a man's heart.
"Afraid I'm lonely and cold?" Zhou Ze stood up and poured a glass of water for Doctor Lin.
She is the hostess here,
Well,
To be precise, the money for Xu Le to open this bookstore was still provided by her family.
Doctor Lin took the water, shook her head, and didn't speak.
The two are husband and wife, but in reality, they are similar to the most familiar strangers, in a more awkward position than platonic friends.
It's difficult to go further;
It's even harder to take a step back.
"Let's go out for a walk." Zhou Ze felt a little dull in the room, and he couldn't invite Doctor Lin to his sleeping place on the second floor.
Even if Doctor Lin took the wrong medicine today and planned to sacrifice herself to the tiger, she would probably call the familiar mental hospital number and send him in for a good rehabilitation when she saw his freezer on the second floor.
"It's raining." Doctor Lin said.
"Light rain, it's okay." Zhou Ze waved his hand, relaxed and at ease.
………………
"Rumble, rumble, rumble..."
The rain was getting heavier, and it was very heavy.
Zhou Ze, who didn't even take an umbrella before and wanted to experience the preciousness of spring rain, was almost drenched like a drowned chicken. Doctor Lin was still holding an umbrella, standing on the side, and Zhou Ze refused her suggestion to share an umbrella.
He had to finish pretending, even with tears in his eyes.
Patting his wet hair, Zhou Ze shivered. He wasn't very afraid of the cold. He was actually very resistant to freezing, but the woman beside him, even though she was holding an umbrella and not getting too wet, was still trembling slightly.
The bus stop can block most of the rain,
But the cold wind at night can still be wanton.
Bourgeois sentiment,
Men and women together,
Wet body in the rainy night,
Beautiful woman pity,
This should have been a good opportunity for both parties to cultivate their relationship, a good opportunity, even a spark and a mistake in the flower field were all possible, but the two were speechless.
Zhou Ze lit a cigarette, and Doctor Lin stood beside him.
One wants to escape, and the other is inherently resistant, so naturally they can't go together.
A forced melon is awkward for both the melon and the vine.
Zhou Ze was a little resentful of Xu Le in his heart. If that coward had come up with a forceful plan after getting married, there wouldn't be such a mess now. Even if Doctor Lin was a married woman or pregnant with a child, she would probably be breathtakingly beautiful, and even add some points.
He would be able to go with the flow, so where would he need to be in such a dilemma now.
Of course, this kind of resentment is very unfair to Xu Le. If Zhou Ze had come up with a forceful plan that night, would Doctor Lin desperately resist and shout "Indecent assault?" Then call the police and send Zhou Ze to the Public Security Bureau? Accuse him of the crime of attempted rape?
The rain was still falling,
Zhou Ze threw the cigarette butt on the ground,
"Did you drive here?"
"Taxi." Doctor Lin replied.
"I'll take you back."
"Okay."
There's no need to dwell on how this seemingly silly and naive New Year's Eve rainy night stroll started,
At least, the two of them felt that ending it at this time was the most appropriate.
They hailed a ride-hailing car, and Zhou Ze and Doctor Lin got in together.
A quarter of an hour later, they arrived. Zhou Ze accompanied Doctor Lin out of the car. The driver settled the bill and drove away directly.
Home is upstairs, but Zhou Ze and Doctor Lin didn't choose to go straight up.
This scene is a bit like junior high school couples returning to the girl's house downstairs together at night, and it's time to say goodbye below, lingering and affectionate.
But the atmosphere at this time is not as strong as that of young junior high school students. It's like meat soup without salt and MSG. It doesn't taste good when you eat it, but it's a pity to pour it out.
"Aren't you going up?" Doctor Lin asked.
"I'm not going, let's talk about it after a while, let's deal with our matter."
Doctor Lin understood Zhou Ze's implication and said, "I'm sorry."
Zhou Ze smiled, then stretched out his hand, originally wanting to pat Doctor Lin on the shoulder, but after putting his hand on it, he suddenly had some impulse and still hugged her over.
Doctor Lin's body stiffened a little, but she didn't resist.
The two got a little closer, but it wasn't a very intimate action. Compared with the connection between the two, it could be said to be very distant.
She smells pretty good, and I don't know which shower gel she uses when she takes a bath. In short, it smells very good.
"I've always been curious about one thing, is there someone else in your heart?" Zhou Ze added, "That someone else can refer to a man or a woman."
"Yes." Doctor Lin was very frank, even answering without hesitation.
Before, her husband had been timid, making her feel unbearable,
Now, her husband seems to have changed, which also made her let go of some burdens.
"Oh." Zhou Ze responded, his eyes slightly upward, wanting to see if there was a specific protective color appearing above his head.
Still a little lost,
Can't talk about love,
Can't say how much I like it,
Even familiarity is barely enough,
But she, no matter what, is nominally his woman, and as a result, he was still cuckolded.
Well, as long as it's a man,
No,
As long as it's a male,
Everyone should not be too happy when encountering this kind of thing.
"I'm sorry." This is the second time to say sorry.
Zhou Ze let go, and the two slowly separated.
"Saying sorry is too polite." Zhou Ze leaned against the stone pier next to him and sat down. The rain was already small, and there was still a small eaves here.
"I will give you another sum of money, you can open another bookstore." After Doctor Lin finished speaking, she said another sentence: "I'm sorry."
Zhou Ze originally wanted to wave his hand generously and say: I don't care about money.
But thinking about his freezer, thinking about his future life,
Zhou Ze suddenly felt that he couldn't say this,
What if,
What if,
What if this woman took it seriously and thought that giving money was an insult to him, and she really wouldn't give him any compensation?
"Let's talk about it in a few days." Zhou Ze shrugged, "How is that guy?"
"He is very handsome, in my opinion." Doctor Lin replied.
It's a man,
Damn,
Another knife,
It would be easier to accept if it was a woman...
Zhou Ze felt that the intensity of photosynthesis above his head seemed to be stronger.
"There's no chance, is there?" Zhou Ze asked a very silly question, and regretted it after asking, but he was still comforting himself, I'm asking this for the sake of the pitiful Xu Le.
He occupied someone's body, and now his wife cheated, you always have to help ask why, right?
Well, that's how it is.
"There's no chance." Doctor Lin's answer was still very fast and affirmative.
This woman is also a surgeon, and her speaking style is really straightforward, just like using a scalpel, cutting into key parts with every knife, and never procrastinating.
Otherwise, the patient will be more painful, and it seems that the same is true in terms of emotion.
"Okay, okay, can't compare, can't compare, it's okay, everyone lives their own lives, you go back and deal with your parents." Zhou Ze was a little upset.
Doctor Lin nodded and walked into the corridor.
Zhou Ze stood up, ready to take a taxi and leave, but at this moment, a strange call came:
"Hello."
"Sir, I have driven the car back."
"So smart?" Zhou Ze was a little surprised. He heard that this was the voice of the previous driver.
"You left a bag on the back seat, and I'm bringing it back to you."
"Oh, thank you."
The car drove to the downstairs of the community again, and the driver handed out a woman's bag from the car window.
"Please check it."
"Okay."
Zhou Ze was not polite and opened Doctor Lin's bag. There was a mobile phone, a wallet, a data charging cable and a few packs of tissues.
Zhou Ze took out the wallet and was stunned as soon as he opened it.
His eyes were fixed on the position where the photo was stored in the wallet.
There was a photo there,
The woman in the photo looked very young, even a little...naive, wearing an ill-fitting white coat.
And the man on the right side of the girl, Zhou Ze felt a little strange and familiar.
After a long time of愣,
Zhou Ze recognized it,
Isn't this himself.
This is a cropped photo, it should be a group photo, but it was cropped into a two-person photo alone.
"Is anything missing?" the driver urged.
"It's okay, thank you, master, you can go."
The driver drove away.
Zhou Ze continued to hold the wallet and looked at it. He didn't even think that he should call Doctor Lin and tell her to come down to get the bag.
Some memories that are not considered dusty, but are considered not very cared for, began to emerge,
Vaguely remember,
Five or six years ago, it seemed that he had brought a group of students who were assigned to intern in the school. There was a girl who seemed to be surnamed Lin, and she seemed to overlap with the girl in the photo in appearance.
Girls change a lot in eighteen years,
A smile appeared on the corner of Zhou Ze's mouth,
Doctor Lin was so cute back then, who knew that she would grow up to be so beautiful after five or six years, he really didn't notice the growth potential of this girl at all.
Moreover, he was very perfunctory about the hospital's request for him to take interns. These students were purely used as "medical dogs" by his side.
Zhou Ze shook the wallet in his hand,
"Damn, no wonder you were still single when you were almost thirty."
This time, he was not scolding Xu Le unexpectedly,
But scolding himself,
"Eyes,
Are really blind..."
Zhou Ze opened his arms and stretched,
The person who put a green hat on himself,
Turned out to be himself,
Early morning after the rain, the first day of the Lunar New Year,
Hehe,
Looking at the sky.
He solemnly stretched out his hand and patted his chest,
Zhou Ze paused,
He said very seriously:
"Xu Le, you are really my good brother!
I will take care of your wife, don't worry."