Chapter 30 I, Actually Have Memory Errors?

"I, actually have memory errors?"

Xu Jingming, suspended in mid-air, gradually calmed down. "It seems the situation is already very serious!"

"Back then, after my mind purification established its foundation, I practiced the mind, and have now condensed it eleven times."

Xu Jingming pondered, "Condensing the mind is a difficult path. The further one goes, the more one needs to encompass, and the difficulty of refining impurities also increases constantly."

Encompassing, refining, condensing.

If one encompasses little, refining is relatively easy. "I want to encompass 'Dark Primordial,' the more massive the information encompassed, the more deeply rooted the 'impurities' become. Each time I condense my mind, I need to encompass more information, refine away more impurities. If I can't refine them away, too many impurities will make my mind impure," Xu Jingming's expression turned solemn.

"Those who obtained the *Xu Yuan* inheritance, without high-dimensional pollution, without abnormal emotions, still find it difficult to master the power of the Mind Realm." "That's because…"

"To condense the power of the Mind Realm, the vast amount of information encompassed is enough to evolve one's own Mind Realm. To completely refine so much information is incredibly difficult." Xu Jingming also understood why so few Void God Clan members succeed on this path. Seeing the path clearly doesn't mean one can walk it successfully.

"Even if the Void God Clan gets stuck in a bottleneck and finds it difficult to progress, they won't lose control. After all, an impure mind isn't a big problem. Many tenth-order Source Lifeforms don't have pure minds," Xu Jingming thought.

"But if I get stuck in a bottleneck, the trouble will be great," Xu Jingming worried.

"My mental power, on one hand, needs to suppress the chaos of high-dimensional pollution, and on the other hand, it also needs to suppress abnormal emotions."

"The further I cultivate, the more impurities there are! It's difficult to suppress both chaos and abnormal emotions at the same time."

Xu Jingming had a headache. And now, he was starting to experience memory errors. This was a sign of losing control.

"What to do?" Xu Jingming pondered. "Actually, after my mind reached a high dimension, the impact of pollution is already relatively small."

Xu Jingming thought, the stronger his mind, the easier it is to suppress the chaos of pollution. If I'm strong, the enemy is weak! "Abnormal emotions are the big problem. Because abnormal emotions use my mental power as soil. The stronger my mind, the more intense the abnormal emotions."

"And over time, with the accumulation of abnormal emotions, their impact on me becomes greater and greater." Xu Jingming carefully analyzed. Abnormal emotions are the core key! "Over the years, I've also tried to find ways to vent painful emotions. Although it has some effect, it seems now that the effect isn't enough."

Xu Jingming's eyes turned cold. "In order not to lose control, there's only one other path – assimilate it!"

"Assimilate abnormal emotions! Let it become part of my emotions. If painful emotions are part of me, they won't disrupt my mind anymore." Xu Jingming made a decision. He originally didn't want to choose this path, and had been resisting and venting abnormal emotions.

But now, it seems he has no choice. "Having tasted all kinds of pain, getting used to pain… If pain is part of me, abnormal emotions will become normal emotions. At that time, I will regain absolute clarity." Xu Jingming overlooked this mineral planet, and with a thought, disappeared into thin air.

In the blink of an eye, six years had passed. In a remote star system, an ordinary life-sustaining planet.

Inside a small tavern, the owner, Ning Wei, sat on an outdoor chair, watching the passersby in thought. Suddenly, he saw a tattered beggar, whose gaze fell on him.

"Hmm?"

At that moment, Ning Wei felt as if his soul had been seen through, which made his face change drastically. He had too many secrets that he couldn't afford to reveal.

"In the past three days, I have passed through 1,329 life-sustaining planets, observing billions of living beings. The pain in your heart is the most intense I have seen," the tattered beggar walked closer. "Would you be willing to lend me three minutes?"

Ning Wei stared at the beggar in front of him. "What do you want to do?"

"Attach myself to you, and bear your pain," the beggar said. "Afterward, I will grant you one wish."

"Grant me one wish?"

Ning Wei looked at Xu Jingming. He could feel how terrifying this beggar was. The most powerful people he had ever met in his life were far less terrifying than the beggar in front of him.

This made Ning Wei laugh, a little crazily. "You want to feel my pain?

If you can feel it, then come on."

"Don't resist," the beggar said, looking into Ning Wei's eyes.

Ning Wei felt as if the beggar's eyes were connected to a universe, and he became lost. At that moment, the area they were in was concealed. The rest of the people on the planet couldn't see or enter that area. It seemed like only three minutes had passed. But with Xu Jingming's mental power, he spent 532 years in Ning Wei's memories, transforming into Ning Wei and experiencing everything he had experienced. After three minutes, Ning Wei suddenly woke up and saw the beggar smiling, smiling…

Madly. "Living in an endless sea of suffering, and still not giving up hope?

Hahaha, like a donkey, looking at the carrot in front of it, running forward, running and running, until it dies. That donkey keeps looking at the carrot, but can never reach it. You are the same. Always looking at hope, but never able to touch it. Without hope, you would have killed yourself long ago.

But it's also because of hope that you experience more pain."

The beggar smiled strangely, "Your relatives died tragically, your homeland was slaughtered, your civilization was shattered, and as a void lifeform, you were escorted to a slave market.

You joined the rebel army, and the rebel army failed again and again… Your heart is already riddled with holes, you are already a walking corpse, yet you can still endure it, just because of that little bit of hope?" Xu Jingming laughed, his eyes turning red.

"I am not willing to die like this, I want revenge, at all costs, I want revenge!" Ning Wei stared at Xu Jingming.

"Haha, I feel your pain," Xu Jingming said, smiling somewhat maniacally. Using the art of the mind, he merged his mind into his body, and in three minutes felt Ning Wei's entire life's pain. An ordinary Source Lifeform would have gone mad, but Xu Jingming had already gotten used to it. In the past six years, he had traveled to planets throughout the universe. His eyes watched countless living beings, searching for those with the most intense painful emotions. In the beginning, he was greatly stimulated, but after repeatedly attaching himself and experiencing their pain, Xu Jingming had also become somewhat crazy.

…He even willingly became a beggar, enduring the discrimination and hatred of countless living beings. Immersed in all kinds of pain every day, Xu Jingming had already adapted, and the impact of abnormal painful emotions had become weaker.

"Your wish is revenge, isn't it?" Xu Jingming looked at him.

"Yes," Ning Wei looked at Xu Jingming, "If you have seen my memories, you should know what I want most."

"You want all the enemies who slaughtered your homeland and your people to die!"

Xu Jingming nodded. "Okay, 325 years ago, I will kill all the perpetrators who slaughtered your homeland, as long as they are still alive, leaving none behind."

Ning Wei couldn't believe that the other party could really do it. "Tomorrow, you go gather information, and you will discover their deaths."

The beggar turned and left.

More than three hundred years ago, those who committed the massacre hadn't died of old age yet. A total of 739 void lifeforms were still alive, including two eighth-order void lifeforms. Although the massacre was a secret, and although these 739 people were scattered throughout the star system, Xu Jingming traveled from planet to planet and was able to find many secret intelligence reports, investigated clearly, and locked onto the targets one by one.

Within a day, all 739 people were dead.

Whether it was an eighth-order void lifeform leading a cosmic fleet, a high-ranking member of the royal family, or a merchant traveling to other star systems, all of the void lifeforms who had participated in the massacre back then died. The rebel army had always regarded these people as targets for revenge, and naturally quickly gathered information about most of their deaths.

"These perpetrators are all dead?"

"That demon is also dead?" Many members of the rebel army were stunned.

"Haha, they're dead, all dead."

Ning Wei learned the information from the rebel army in the small tavern. After murmuring to himself for an hour that night, he committed suicide. When he finally touched hope, he no longer had the strength to live on.

The beggar-like Xu Jingming stood outside the small tavern, silently watching Ning Wei, who had finally gotten his wish, choose to commit suicide. "So, this is your final ending… Death is a relief for you?

What is pain? No matter how great the pain, as long as there is a little hope… it can be resisted. The sea of suffering is boundless, but there are boats that can ferry you across, and the boat is called 'hope.' But in reality, without hope, pain will become despair. There will be no more pain." Xu Jingming laughed crazily, "Hope is a boat, hope is the source of pain, hahaha…"

"Next." Xu Jingming continued to wander in the universe, searching for planets and finding those with sufficiently intense painful emotions, and then attaching himself to experience them. Although he seemed increasingly crazy, each time he only spent three minutes feeling those people's life of hardship, Xu Jingming was actually becoming more and more clear-headed.

The impact of abnormal painful emotions on him was getting smaller and smaller. He knew very well what he was doing.

"I am in the sea of suffering, but I also have hope." Xu Jingming also had his own concerns. These years, he didn't approach his homeland or see his family.

"One day, I will solve the pollution and the problem of abnormal emotions." The beggar-like Xu Jingming walked everywhere.

"Are you willing to lend me three minutes?"

Each time Xu Jingming found someone with sufficiently intense painful emotions, he would say, "I will grant you one wish."

He repeatedly fulfilled the wishes of these people in the sea of suffering, and Xu Jingming, watching their actions after their wishes were fulfilled, also gained some understanding. Finally, one day, the beggar-like Xu Jingming was walking in a city when he saw three figures appear in front of him.

One was Vice-Dean Chi Meng, one was Island Master Fan Xi, and one was Garrison Bai Ge.

"The managers of the three most powerful forces have all come together."

Xu Jingming looked at them and smiled. "Is it because I've caused too much trouble in these six years?"

"Junior Brother," Vice-Dean Chi Meng frowned slightly, "You have lost control."

"Lost control? No," Xu Jingming smiled brightly, "I feel more awake than ever before."